"Plan B"

"Plan A is always my first choice.

You know, the one where

Everything works out to be

Happily ever after.

But more often than not,

I find myself dealing with 

The upside-down,

Inside-out version

Where nothing goes as it should.

It's at this point that the real test

Of my character comes in...

Do I sink or do I swim?

Do I wallow in self-pity

And play the victim

Or simply shift gears

And make the best of the situation?

The choice is mine. After all...

Life is about

How you handle Plan B.

- Suzy Toronto

I don't think it was mere coincidence that I read this poem on a card that I was filing at work. I thought how true this little poem is. I guess the last few weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind - for lack of a better phrase, I've been dealing with "Plan B." Of course, there are questions...confusion...the unknown, but I'm leaning hard on my heavenly Father. I rest in the refuge of His character - the fact that He really is in control of my life. Not just the "big picture" but the daily details. I'm learning to be quiet - not that it's easy, but it's necessary. I'm learning to give God my thoughts, to give Him my worry, my questions, instead of spouting off to any passerby. I'm learning to be thankful for the small and the big - for just about anything really. I've really been given way more than I deserve, and I don't want to forget that. I'm learning that His grace is enough - I can completely rest in God's care for me.

I know this sounds really weird, but part of me is excited to see how God is going to work - in the situation and apart from it. See, that's what is so amazing about my God - He is a "forward-looking" God. He is working out things according to His purpose and His plan. That means that the season I'm going through right now will not be wasted, but He will somehow use it for my good, as long as I allow Him to. And by God's help, He can do with me what He wishes. I'm His.