Perspective

Often I come to the end of the day and feel discouraged if I didn't accomplish as much as I wanted to. Or I'll feel good if I've been especially productive. But I'm realizing that it is dangerous to base my worth or value on what I do. Yes, we do have a sense of satisfaction when we've completed a task. I believe that God created us to feel this way. But I need to be careful to not allow feelings of guilt or disappointment cloud my mind when I haven't checked off all the lists.

My focus should be: Did I walk with Jesus today? Did I allow Him, invite Him into my day, my lists, my schedule? Did I follow the Holy Spirit's promptings?

I'm finding that when my focus is Jesus and adopting His mind, I find true satisfaction and fulfillment. I'm able to accomplish what I need to do, but often it isn't the mountain it seemed to be.

Having the right perspective is powerful.

Swirling

This is how I describe the last few weeks.

Swirling.

How is it possible to feel so many emotions at one time?

Life is happening at such a fast pace. I find myself trying to slow. Noticing the small. Finding that quiet spot in all the chatter.

Those bright stars.
The sound of his voice.
The cows. The calves. The green fields.
The brazen clouds through the window.
The smell of woodsmoke.
Laughter.
A familiar song.
Reading our story again. Looking at our pictures again. Smiling. How can beautiful dreams actually be coming true?

The lists are endless. The piles are building.

But life, love, is worth it. Despite the busyness, the noise, the exhaustion, the power of love propels me forward.

Because, I'm created to love. To serve. To give myself away.

Swirling.