Sunday, December 28, 2014

Bus Trip

I'm sitting on a Baron charter bus next to my snoozing husband on our way to Cincy.

Yes it's nearly 1 am, but my heart is so full of God's goodness.

I need to count gifts, to recount the blessings, especially those I've been given this past week during Christmas break.

I am abundantly blessed to be married to Lucas! God is so good to me in providing Lucas to guide and guard my heart. We have been married exactly six months today! It's been a glorious, adventure-filled six months and I anticipate continuing this journey with him.

Not only did I marry this fantastic guy, but I've got the best in-laws I can dream of! They love Jesus and serve Him authentically and are just so fun to be around. It was wonderful getting to see nearly all of Lucas' extended family for Christmas. God's plan for family is so beautiful! I'm grateful that my life will forever be connected to these dear people.

I'm thankful for the reminder this Christmas that Jesus came for us humans - disheveled, sickly, rowdy, needy as we are. The tears were flowing as I took communion with my husband's arm around me. The immeasurable blessings of living for Jesus were tumbling around in my head. He does bring peace into our nights!

Ah the joy of not taking offense, of living with palms open! I'm learning this hard lesson! God is faithful. I'm learning to trust!

The security of knowing I am fully loved and accepted. Life-changing!

I saw so many faces today. Did any of them feel the peace I feel? Knowing they are fully loved and fully known by our kind Father? And that He is always giving good gifts if you slow enough to find them?

As we continue heading east, I'm full of gratefulness.
Thank you, Father!

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Changes

I have a new last name that somehow I've picked up rather quickly, probably due to the little second grade voices that call it so frequently. :)

I live in a new house that is becoming "home" more and more each day.

I teach in a new school with new students who I've grown to love.

I see my best friend every day after years of distance. He's so good to me, for me. We continue to grow. His love is transforming me.

I worship at a new church, but so much is so familiar. God's family transcends the miles.

I continue to sing and play my flute. 

I now live by this amazing expanse of wonder and beauty - the ocean. I can never be there long enough (unless noseums are biting). ;)

I've taken up running and find it invigorating. My first 5k is Saturday.

I've been cooking. Sometimes it's frustrating, but I'm finding it to be fun and satisfying as well.

My tennis game is improving. My partner is the best.

I walk to work. I still love the newness of mornings.

I'm thankful to live near my sister in law and brother in law. They are such a blessing.

I'm looking forward to flying home for Christmas. I can't wait to see my family. In some ways it seems like yesterday that we were enjoying our breakfast at Bob Evans on my wedding day, but it's been a few days since then. But they've been good days.

God is so good to me. For within my changing life, He remains the same. Yet, I've found Him to be more real to me each day. My relationship with Him really is the most important thing to me. I'm so thankful for how He walks with us each day.

"And my God will fulfill your every need according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19


Monday, June 9, 2014

Journaling the Journey

"Are you journaling?" Linda asked me. "You'll want to journal so you can tell your kids about it some day."

So, taking a few minutes, to jot down memories from the past few days, so I can remember. Remembering is a godly discipline, because I'm keeping a chronicle of His gifts.

Thursday, May 29, 2014

I enjoyed a lovely last day of school with my kiddos. I remember sitting under the big atrium with my kids and their parents at those long tables, thinking, "Wow, I'm really going to miss these kids." No one was yelling. No one was running around. They were eating and chatting. It was so lovely.

And then, we were in traffic, running late, I was worried about their books...and I walk in the classroom as they shout "Surprise!" Decorations, burlap, lace, cake, food, balloons, and lots of children and parents. What a happy ending to a happy day. And their loving support to Lucas and me! Wow, so blessed!! I enjoyed those flowers for days. *Sigh. Such a happy memory.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Inservice Day at LBA. Lovely breakfast with the team. Savoring these friendly people who have been my coworkers for the last 2 1/2 years. Working in my classroom. Sometimes in the dark and quiet. Sometimes with the lights on and music/podcasts.

Left early and headed downtown to the Courthouse. Loved walking among those great iron walls. Stopped for a $4 coffee drink at CE. It was a hot day, and the cold coffee tasted great. Dropped off many, many books at the library. Nice lady wasn't stressed at the number of books. Found Findley Market and also figured out how to get up to PNC near UC. I love being lost and discovering new roads. Drove over to Eden Park and made a list and listened to conversations and people watched. It was a beautiful afternoon. Drove over to GBS and waited till that familiar black car pulled up behind me. :)

Lucas and I had such a wonderful counseling session with Mr. Miles. Lucas said it really hit him, that we're getting married! :) I remember sitting in that leather chair with those tall bookcases full of books, with the love of my life sitting next to me, and Mr. Miles investing in our lives in his friendly, casual manner, thinking, "I can hardly believe that I have the privilege of marrying Lucas!" This man, who's committed to loving me for life...who loves me as Jesus would...who loves learning with me...who's already leading me to become more like Jesus...who enjoys spending time with me, laughing with me...who seeks to meet my needs... Wow, this girl is abundantly blessed with this man. It is my prayer, that God will make me into the woman, the helper, the lover he needs.

"Love is always moving closer to the other person. When you find yourself moving away, you are not loving them." I still see Mr. Miles' large hands moving together until they touched. Two completely different people agreeing to meet in the middle...they become stronger together. Wow, so blessed to be a part of the 3 stranded cord.

After our nearly 2 hour counseling session that certainly didn't feel that long, we waded through the Western Choir people, and headed over to Eden Park. I was still clueless until we got out at the park and then I realized that the cooler in the back seat was a picnic Luke had planned for us! :-) He had thought of everything! Sandwiches, cheese puffs, sugar-snap peas (my favorite!) and ranch, cherries (also a favorite!), and german chocolate cake (or was it turtle?), and pop in glass bottles (with straws!). AND a red and white checkered table cloth! It was so lovely! I remember thinking, that no, we couldn't have picnics every day, but I do get to spend the rest of my life with him!!

Then we sat on the park bench and discussed our book amidst the loud music and laughter and conversation that was happening all around us. We were together. And it was wonderful! :)

As we drove home, I thought that we don't have too many more drives in separate cars. I'm ready for that to end. :)

We stayed up late and played Rook with Chelle and Andrew and saw raccoons and talked about all kinds of lovely topics. ;)

Saturday, May 31, 2014

We ate breakfast with the fam the next morning, played tennis (again thinking, "Wow! This is forever! So blessed to have this forever friend!), had another "goodbye" in the driveway (those are numbered!) and went our separate ways, he back home as I headed to LBA. Loved those looks and smiles, but slightly jealous that he was eating peas and I was not! ;)

The LBA shower was just lovely (seems to be my word of choice!). They outdid themselves with decorations, food, and gifts. Such wonderful ladies. I'll treasure the Jenga game with advice and well wishes. And wow, that food was good.

Sunday, June 1, 2014

I'm savoring singing in the Praise Team with my family and friends. It's been some wonderful years.

It's wedding month!! WOW!!!

Monday, June 2, 2014

Worked a LONG day in the classroom, but Mel came over after work and helped. What a blessing! She worked circles around me! We went to a new pizza place for supper, and I just enjoy being in her friendly presence. God is using her in great ways!

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Made quite a bit of head way in the classroom. It was a perfect day to clean manipulatives: sunny and windy. So nice. Didn't realize how much stuff I had accumulated from teaching 2 1/2 years. Loaded everything on the cart, and it blew over and broke Dad's book stand, but it could have been a lot worse.

Met up with Linda for supper. What a special time! So very grateful that God brought us together in 2011. Her prayer for Lucas and me was beautiful and our conversation was so special. We are truly kindred spirits! It was exciting to hear the new changes happening in her life. It's so refreshing to see real people loving our real God and exercising real faith and real trust in Him. Wow.

And then Laura called me out of the blue when I got home. Another incredible woman who I call friend. You can just hear the joy in her voice even over the phone. Can't wait to see these lovely ladies at our wedding.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

I began packing up my personal belongings today. Brenda was an absolute God-send! And I never realized how much stuff I have! And now that it's all in Florida, I think that I certainly don't need it all! Less is more. Less is more. Less is more. Lucas will have to help me with this! :)

It was cool seeing the pile of boxes grow in the corner thinking that this is really happening! I'm moving! I'm getting married! Wow!!

Went to church tonight and had a special time of prayer with a small group. It's easy to be self-absorbed with wedding plans and moving, but it was good to remember that other people are carrying heavy burdens. I was touched to see Steve so broken about his lost son. God, help me to always keep your perspective and see the world through your eyes.

Thursday, June 5, 2014

Finished packing up all my stuff. I enjoyed going through stacks and stacks of cards, remembering all the people who've invested in my life. It was fun finding a few notes/cards from Lucas that I had forgotten about. That man has certainly been loving me for a long time. So blessed!

Drove on some favorite country roads over to Braelynn's birthday party. It was fun seeing the whole fam again and seeing Braelynn destroy that ladybug cake!

Luke and Dad Ryder made it in with the big moving truck and dolly (sp?!) for Reginald. Seeing that big truck in the driveway was so cool! We're really moving to Florida! Enjoyed chatting for a few minutes in the kitchen before heading to bed.

Friday, June 6, 2014




Moving Day! The early morning was absolutely beautiful as we began carrying box after box to the truck. Luke was so great about getting all of my junk to fit! Then they loaded up Reginald and off we went. I do confess that I snapped several pictures of Regi and the truck as they drove in front of me.

We stopped for gas and a hug across the pump. :) He noted that my hands were cold. I think God is giving us cooler weather as a little gift before we cross into the sunny, hot land of Florida. ;)

Luke and I drove to Batavia and got our official documents saying that we are really going to do this thing called marriage! :) But, so blessed to know that our covenant is so much more than a piece of paper. This is before God, and will only be lasting because of His help, His grace, His strength. I'm so thankful to be marrying a man who is rooted and secure in who he is in God and who is living out his purpose of loving God and loving others. Again, I remember feeling overwhelmed by gratefulness for Lucas.

We drove back to Meijer, said our goodbye's (which included him running to give me a quick kiss :D) and they were on their way to Florida. I couldn't help thinking that in a few short weeks, I too will be with him as we drive to Florida for good!

Friday night was my personal shower at Rachelle's. So thankful for the wonderful women God has brought into my life. The whole evening was just lovely. Lots of laughter, good food, great gifts;), and that deep peace that comes with fellowship with believers. So blessed.

Saturday, June 7, 2014

A beautiful day filled with wedding preparations with my family. Lots of good memories made today! Dad and Andrew made a bonfire and lit the tiki torches tonight. It was beautiful.

Luke sent pictures of our home filled with all the boxes. He and his dad worked so very hard after an extra long trip. Lucas is such a loyal man...a hard-worker who does his job well. I'm so very blessed to have him be my protector and provider. I can't wait to set up house and live with him!

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Today, we had a very special service marked with God's presence.

I took an extra long nap and then enjoyed reading out of the Psalms when I woke up. Luke prayed that we would not get too busy in these last few weeks for our time with God. There are so many things pulling for us, it will take deliberate choices, but time with God must come first!

It was lovely hearing Luke's voice again and catching up about our weekends. He also prayed that God would help us to have His perspective about our wedding. So much planning is going into this one day, that it's easy to forget all the days following! I'm thankful for a fiance who keeps me grounded and helps me see things globally when it's so easy to focus on all of these details.

He is just so wonderful, that Lucas! :)

And it's late! And tomorrow's another full day of life!

These are the best days of my life! And my future days will be even better!

Thankful for this journey!

Good night!

Friday, May 30, 2014

An Open Letter to my Fiance

My dear Lucas,

I had intentions of writing this letter and posting it on the 28th, but you can see that that didn't quite happen. ;) But I still want to write some of my thoughts down for years to come (or until the Internet becomes obsolete). ;)

Can you believe it?! We're getting married in less than a month!! I still remember receiving an email from you several years ago that said that you knew that I'd be a part of your life. I still remember feeling incredibly excited, amazed, and awed by that thought.

And now, here we are. Getting ready to embark on this new chapter in the journey, except now we'll be walking together, side by side. For most of our dating and engagement, we've been separated by many miles. I so look forward to being with you day after day after day after day! I'm excited to set up house with you, to develop our routines and habits as a couple, to learn and grow with you.

Thanks for believing in me...for seeing something beautiful in me so many years ago. Thank you for calling and coming and calling and coming...with each mile and each "send," you show me again your great love for me. I'm so grateful for your love; for how you seek my best. Wow, I'm so blessed to have you.

I already sense that these next days will be so busy. We will be pulled in many directions. Our minds will be full. Our emotions will be unruly. But this I know, God has led us to this point. We've followed His guidance. We both desire for our wedding and marriage to glorify God, to point others to Jesus' tranformative love to us. And He will help us in these busy moments, to find His peace and His joy.

I choose you Lucas Ryder! I love you Lucas! I can't wait to be your forever bride!

With all my love,

Alanna

P.S. I can't even begin to express how wonderful "Mr. and Mrs. Lucas Ryder" looks on that envelope!

Monday, May 26, 2014

Out of the Mouths of Children

I've had a stack of papers on my floor since the fourth or fifth week of school. The students had to write a poem or song of praise to God. I loved what they came up with and wanted to document it on the blog. I tried to leave their original spelling and punctuation. :)

I only have three days left with these kids. I've definitely been feeling bittersweet feelings over the whole matter. This has really been a special year with a unique bunch of kids. As Lucas prayed with me last night, more than anything academic or musical that we may have taught our students, I pray these students remember the love I have for them and the love God has for them. I want them to remember that the one true God loves them so much He sent Jesus to be our Savior. He wants a forever relationship with them. God's mercy is real! His grace helps us change.

Pray that these last three days are filled with opportunities for me to reflect my Jesus to these precious children.

Here are their poems/songs:

"God your the best. You give grace to the humble. I love you are the best. in anywey." - Sofia

"God you help me not sin! your the most power God I no becuse your the only God I love! your my God your my sae!" - Nevaeh

"you are All powerflull God We All Love you God." - Ralph

"You are our God you are perfite you are our mystare." - Matthieu

"God your the Best
God your the Best
God your the Best
God your the Best." - Ronith

"God is wonerful! God is loving! God is great!" - Anish

"He is all powerfull in all wase He saved us He Helb." - Shreyank

"Praise for God Praise for the Loord! Praise for scol Praise fo make good. God is ior save God I love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! Love! you." - Cinthia

"God you are all Powerful. You are strong when I am afraid You confort me you are most powful aboth all Gods there is no God like you O Lord" - Timothy

"God has all prwoer. God you are speshel. God you are loving! God your the eprier. God you are great." - Daniel

"Your my god your my god you make lie in the green pastures your my God!" - Adam

"God I love you I wish I can go to chrch evereybay and Praise you evereybay and I want to diy and Be with you" - Maddy


Tuesday, May 20, 2014

Love

Today I saw and experienced many forms of love today.

Love between a groom and his new bride.
Love between a husband and wife as they handled their young children.
Love between old friends and newer acquaintances.
Love between a brother and a sister.
Love between a boyfriend and his girlfriend.
Love between a teacher and her students.
Love between a fiance and his bride-to-be.

Dr. Glick said tonight that we are all students in the school of love and we are all slow learners.

I'm reminded that loving someone isn't something to be checked off a list. There isn't a mysterious, hidden trick that has to be found. Loving someone isn't a stagnant routine or habit. It's alive, fresh. It grows, matures. It is always seeking the others best.

Our example is divine as Dr. Glick said. We can only truly love when God's spirit is enabling-when He is in-dwelling and governing our lives.

Love is an action.

"Love is patient, love is kind, love is not jealous, it does not boast, it does not become conceited, it does not behave dishonorably, it is not selfish, it does not become angry, it does not keep a record of wrongs, it does not rejoice at unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth, bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends." (1 Cor. 13:4-8a LEB)

Today marked four months when this sweet man said he loved me and wanted to marry me. Love has and is transforming our lives. What a immense privilege to be in this love relationship with him! May our love continue to deepen and reflect Jesus' love.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Perspective

Often I come to the end of the day and feel discouraged if I didn't accomplish as much as I wanted to. Or I'll feel good if I've been especially productive. But I'm realizing that it is dangerous to base my worth or value on what I do. Yes, we do have a sense of satisfaction when we've completed a task. I believe that God created us to feel this way. But I need to be careful to not allow feelings of guilt or disappointment cloud my mind when I haven't checked off all the lists.

My focus should be: Did I walk with Jesus today? Did I allow Him, invite Him into my day, my lists, my schedule? Did I follow the Holy Spirit's promptings?

I'm finding that when my focus is Jesus and adopting His mind, I find true satisfaction and fulfillment. I'm able to accomplish what I need to do, but often it isn't the mountain it seemed to be.

Having the right perspective is powerful.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Swirling

This is how I describe the last few weeks.

Swirling.

How is it possible to feel so many emotions at one time?

Life is happening at such a fast pace. I find myself trying to slow. Noticing the small. Finding that quiet spot in all the chatter.

Those bright stars.
The sound of his voice.
The cows. The calves. The green fields.
The brazen clouds through the window.
The smell of woodsmoke.
Laughter.
A familiar song.
Reading our story again. Looking at our pictures again. Smiling. How can beautiful dreams actually be coming true?

The lists are endless. The piles are building.

But life, love, is worth it. Despite the busyness, the noise, the exhaustion, the power of love propels me forward.

Because, I'm created to love. To serve. To give myself away.

Swirling.

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Only the Beginning

Even though I saw snowflakes today, the blog needs a spring picture. We've had a few glimpses of spring so I remain optimistic that she'll be here in full bloom very soon!

I love this man so much. We're getting married three months from yesterday. I wouldn't trade our journey, this adventure, for anything in the world. What an immense blessing to love him and be loved by him. Even though we live four hours away and are both tackling enormous lists in regards to the wedding and our future, we're enjoying this time. We're growing closer to each other. Finding joy in the moments.

It was wonderful being with him this weekend. Driving in our new-to-us, Tracy. Walking hand in hand along the river with those sparkling lights. Enjoying a meal together filled with refreshing laughter and conversation. That bubbly tea. Being close to him. Experiencing life with him.

And today - enjoying breakfast together with the family. Running errands in the rain. Eating a meal with our families knowing this is just the beginning.

It's hard - the distance. Saying goodbye again. But, if I can just remember - this is only the beginning. The best is yet to come.

Because of Jesus. Because He's living. He's working. His plans are good. His people are good. Choosing to love is good. It's safe. It's secure. It's not always easy. Pain is inevitable. But living a life of love is what we're created to do. It's how God redeems His world. He loves us and we love those around us. Each moment, each life is an opportunity to love. 

In all the planning and preparation, I don't want to fail to live in this moment. To love in this moment. 

"Today can be unwavering peace because an uncertain tomorrow can be trusted to an unchanging God." - A. Voskamp

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Moments of Grace

- Sunshine, glorious sunshine.
- The sweetest fiance I could ever ask for! His love is changing me!
- A whole day to spend with him Saturday! :-)
- Seeing the kids so excited about their biography reports...
- Public libraries!!
- Catchy rhythm that makes learning our Bible verses fun!
- All the bridesmaids have their dresses!
- Coffee drinks given to me by two different people!
- His peace (John 14:27)
- The kids asking to listen to music while they did their cursive. :)
- How well they listen to Adventures in Odyssey at lunch... May His word not return void!
- Remembering that macaroni make perfect commas...a fun extra to do tomorrow.
- Thankful that one of my dear ones did not run out of the room once! It's the little things! ;)
- Those flowers from my love that are still so pretty!
- That fact that God is always present! He sees. He knows.