Snow Day

I love unexpected surprises. Like a snow day on a Friday! How fun! :) I slept in several hours, and then Mom made breakfast with homemade biscuits. Yum! Then I headed to school to do lesson plans, take down some winter stuff, and do a bulletin board. A week from tomorrow is our first Spring open house, so all that needs done anyway. Steve, the music teacher, declared he and I to be workaholics. Haha. I listened to The Magician's Nephew which gives me a yearning to read the books! I've only read The Silver Chair. *Gasp! I know! I practiced on the grand at school which leaves me feeling somewhat frustrated with the Liszt piece that I once had beautifully memorized. Ah...inconsistency will destroy everything. Came home and made Oyster Crackers, ate some with mom's chili, and then had to throw them all away when mom dropped her soup bowl on her plate and the plate shattered into a million pieces. Poor mom...it's kinda funny actually. ;) And now I'm missing this kiddo who's on choir tour. Oh, those tours were some of the highlights of my life. Being with so many like-minded friends, singing, ministering, laughing, living life together. Great memories. I'm praying that this will be a great trip for Andrew...that God will meet him in a special way. I love this picture of us at Chipotle. I had just declared that I was going to take more pictures of my life, and he was so happy to take this one with a whole crowd of people looking on. ;-) Haha...good times. Well, I think I'll go dust my room (how do things get so dusty?!) and finish listening to The Magician's Nephew. And then, I should go to bed early. That would be so wise. :)

Life is Full not with Possessions, but with People

I'm enjoying a quiet day on my day off. I'm listening to Ann's blog and drinking coffee and listing gifts. So many, many gifts.

There's always a bit of a let-down when something you've been waiting for, working towards has already come and past. Time just goes so fast! But the sweet memories stretch the time, keep it close to your heart. Bring a smile to your face. And a longing inside for the next time, when we can be together again.

Relationships are so special. So vital. How did I ever think that I could be an island? That I could make it on my own? That it is safer somehow? No, God knows best. He knows we need each other. He knows life is richer with relationships. That all relationships are are just a picture, a scale model of our real relationship with God.

I am going to start taking more pictures. I always regret the fact after it's past. But I do have a few, and I want to list some gifts I wrote in my journal throughout the weekend. Remembering...cherishing...

- seeing him on the corner waiting for me
- seeing candlelight and a rose through the open door
- the lovely meal he prepared for me (such an act of service!)
- walking around his "life"
- another Starbucks together
- being with his mom and dad, talking and laughing
- closing my eyes and still hearing his voice :)
- having him drive me in mom and dad's car
- that lovely, sweet epistle! Wow!!
- that lovely sweet peace, you really can't understand it!
- Your (God's) great great faithfulness
- chatting with Grandpa and Grandma Mills
- seeing the house and those aqua blue countertops
- our chilly, brisk walk with his dad
- looking and laughing - so much!
- hearing his dad preach, overcome with emotion about God's love
- those beautiful words of the song The Love of God sung so worshipfully
- Sunday dinner - with family - what a blessing!
- that cup of coffee Mrs. Ryder brought me just when I needed it
- discussing family trees - all because two people fell in love
- sitting close looking at books of years past
- the beautiful sunset over the open field
- the quiet trip back...reflecting on the past, talking about the future, savoring the last minutes together
- $30 worth of gas...going above and beyond
-seeing him waving at the corner
- a life rich not with possessions, but people!
- ticking off the miles talking with Brenda and Leanna, rejoicing that God is growing them, molding them

Matthew 23:37-39 (NASB) "And He said to him, 'You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.' This is the great and foremost commandment. The second is like it, 'You shall love your neighbor as yourself.' "




Father, Thank you for this weekend. Thank you for Lucas, for the treasure he is. For allowing us to be a part of each other's lives. Thank you for his family. For how they've shaped him and helped him become the man he is. Thank you for your work in our lives - for "Spirit-help." We are your workmanship...and You are our faithful, loving Creator. Lord, help me to love You and as an out-flowing of that love, to love the people you've placed in my life. Especially the children. Oh, God, help me love them. To be Jesus' hands and feet. To show your joy - abundant joy. To live soft and slow. To wait on You. To wait with You. Lord, as I read this weekend, I want to abide in Your love. Place your joy in me, so that my joy may be full. I want to bear much fruit, so keep me close to You, the vine-my life source. Without You I am nothing. Thank You Father for Your love. For loving me first.

There's No Time Like the Present

to blog...that is.

So I keep sitting around (I mean grading papers) thinking "I need to blog! I don't have time to blog! When will I have time to blog?!"

So, I'm blogging right now. It might be rough. It certainly won't be perfect, but I will blog.

Because blogging helps me remember. And remembering is nearly a commandment. It is! Read Moses' speech to the children of Israel! Remember who brought you out of Egypt! Remember who took care of you in the desert! Remember who caused your shoes not to wear out! (My paraphrase.)

So I'm blogging to remember.


Last week was a monumental day - the 100th day of school! One of my girls was saddened that the ceiling wasn't covered in balloons (oops). I'll have to do that on the last day of school. They were all asking, "Ms. Smith! What are we doing fun for the 100th day of school?!" Mustering my most cheery voice, "Why, we're doing SCHOOL! Won't that be fun?!" Hahaha....But at the end of the day, they were quite happy about their 100 piece trail mix snacks they got to make. What fun. 100 days. Oh my goodness. Lord, you've been so incredibly faithful. Here are a few pictures...I know they're starred out, but the web is scary these days.

The next biggest things are my formal observation on Thursday (thankfully Dana knows me and loves me and I don't need to be too worried). Next Thursday is Valentine's Day for you, but it's Bring-your-Parent-to-School Day for me (and Valentine's Day, I guess). No, you did not just hear me groan. Let's just say it's not the easiest day out of the year. After we have "school" and the parents leave, then we are PARTYING! I'm thinking a calm movie and a snack? Lol..

That leads me to February 15, 2013. After school, I'm heading on a road trip to see one very special, amazing, fabulous man. You're right! Who else could I be talking about?! Lucas!! I guess it's high time that I let little blogdom know that the very same Lucas is dating lil ole me! :-) In all seriousness, I'm super grateful for our relationship. I'm thankful for our journey...for all that we've learned over the years. God's been so faithful to lead and guide both of us, and I'm so excited to be walking this part of the journey with him. He's working so hard on his master's degree, teaching over 20 students, and doing countless other things and making me feel like one special gal. He's tops and I want the world to know. :-) And I get to see him in 10 days!! I love this picture of us on MLKJ Day. :-) (And no "stars" needed on this picture! ;-)

Well, mom's given me orders to get to bed, so I must obey. She's such a good mom, but why in the world does she think I need sleep? Hahaha....oh boy.

A thought from Ann Voskamp's book One Thousand Gifts... (God has used this wonderful mama to change my life...)

" 'The work we do is only our love for Jesus in action,' writes Mother Teresa. 'If we pray the work...if we do it to Jesus, if we do it for Jesus, if we do it with Jesus...that's what makes us content.' That is what makes us content - the contented, deep joy is always in the touching of Christ - in whatever skin He comes to us in." - Ann

Lord, help me to do my work, teach my kids, grade my papers to You, for You, and with You. Be my joy!

Second Grade Prayers

I was just checking some Bible papers from last week, and just needed to record some precious prayers the students wrote. We had been talking about Nehemiah's perseverance in rebuilding Jerusalem's wall even amidst discouragement and negative peer pressure. The last lessons were on the armor of God. The following are the unedited prayers sent up to God. :)

"O God help me put on your armor. and stay with you not get divoword (devoured) by satan." - Kaitlyn

"Dear God help me to follow you and trust you" - Sahil

"Dear God help me to follow you and help me to do the right thing even when no one is looking at me" - Tolu

"Dear God, help me to obey your word. Help me to put on your armor and help me to stand strong faced with negative peer pressure." - Michelle

"Dear God Help me wear your armer and help me to be strong Amen." - Miya

"Dear God, I want to put on your armor." - Ella K.

"Dear God i wount you to help me sai no to wout the deavel saises." Haley

"Dear god I weill pra to you" - Ryan

"Dear God, Help me to follow you all the time. Amen" - Ally

"Dear God help me to be peer pressure." - Emma (I think she wants to be good peer pressure.) :)

"Dear God please help me to do the right thing" - Lance

"God will you help me to be a good girl and to have a pet." - Ava (Might as well ask for a pet, while we're at it.) ;)

"Dear God help me be good agents (against) the devil with the shield of faith." - T.J.

"Dear God pleas keep me saf" - Jacob

"Help me not to lie but to obey" - Justin

"O Lord, please help me to wear the armor of God and lisen to good peer pressure and not bad peer pressure amen" Lucy

These little prayers bring me so much joy. I'm so thankful I get to see God work every day in our little classroom. What a true honor and privilege to share His word every day with my students. His Word is alive!!

NOW is better.

I happened across of picture of me and a couple friends from about three years ago. It's amazing how different I feel from that person back then. In the words of my friend, "Now is infinitely better." That is encouraging. I want to keep growing, maturing, peeling back the layers, becoming better than who I once was. More like Christ.

Romans 8:28-29 ESV
"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers."

Christmas 2012

 I realized that I hadn't posted on the blog for six months.

 Not that there haven't been any blog-worthy moments.

 But I guess I shared them in other ways.

 I don't want to forsake this little blog.

 For me, it's a reminder of the year, moments that otherwise would be forgotten.

 I received a new camera for Christmas, so perhaps I'll be able to chronicle the moments more systematically. ;)

 This Christmas was very special in many ways.

 As of January 10th, I'll be teaching for one year. "If I could survive till Christmas..." I did. By God's grace. And I even enjoyed the experience.

 On Christmas, I was with my wonderful family whom I love so much.

 It snowed the day after Christmas...which made everything feel right.

 That evening, a friend showed up at my door step after driving through the snow storm to see me. :)

 We had a delightful time being together.

 I'm thankful for a friend who knows me yet still wants to know me more.

 In years past, after a big snow, my family and I would walk back to the pond in the woods behind our house. We went back to that pond today. We were taller, older, but there was that pond, and I was still filled with child-like wonder. Some things never change.

 And in the words of Ebenezer Scrooge, "I will honor Christmas in my heart and try to keep it all the year. I will live in the Past, Present, and the Future. The Spirits of all three shall strive within me. I will not shut out the lessons that they teach."

O Emmanuel, Thank you for coming for me. For abiding with me. For guiding my steps. For leading me in the way I should go. For giving me purpose, a hope, and a future. I worship you.

 

What Demons Talk About...

Excerpt from The Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis:

"The sense of ownership in general is always to be encouraged. The humans are always putting up claims to ownership which sound equally funny in Heaven and in Hell and we must keep them doing so... And all the time the joke is that the word 'Mine' in its fully possessive sense cannot be uttered by a human being about anything. In the long run either Our Father or the Enemy will say 'Mine' of each thing that exists, and specially of each man. They will find out in the end, never fear, to whom their time, their souls, and their bodies really belong - certainly not to them, whatever happens. At present the Enemy says 'Mine' of everything on the pedantic, legalistic ground that He made it: Our Father hopes in the end to say 'Mine' of all things on the more realistic and dynamic ground of conquest..."

Wisdom from Proverbs 17

"Better is a dry morsel and quietness with it than a house full of feasting with strife."

"The beginning of strife is like letting out water, so abandon the quarrel before it breaks out."

"A joyful heart is good medicine, but a broken spirit dries up the bones."

"He who restrains his words has knowledge, and he who has a cool spirit is a man of understanding."

"Even a fool, when he keeps silent, is considered wise; when he closes his lips, he is considered prudent."

Do Hard Things

During the last two months, I've been doing the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm teaching ten second graders at LBA, the Christian elementary school where I attended.

I remember thinking at one point, "It would be cool if I could finish out the year long-term subbing after student teaching..." and here I am.

Teaching has to be the most humbling experience of all, next to parenting. Actually, I think teaching is a type of parenting.

I'm learning so much. It is hard...sometimes so. hard.

But, I keep leaning on the promise that God won't lead me where He won't give me the grace to finish.

I'm confident that God is my good Father and is leading me through this difficult time to prepare me for my future.

If I ever needed you, God, it is now.

Made Me Glad